I'm really really exhausted.

It's only the 2nd week of sch, and i really feel as if i've burnt myself out. There's so much work to do, so much readings to do from the txtbook, and it's not like i'm kiasu and doing what's more than expected...but i'm desperate! If i don't read the txtbook, i really am lost during lectures and the lecturers are going full steam ahead because it's compulsory for us to read those textbooks. Out of 5 modules, i need to read at least 3 textbooks. And it's not helping that i have a lecturer that goes through 130 pages in a 2 hour lesson, expecting us to know what he's talking about! sigh. And today's separation process module almost killed me...i really was quite lost. He went so fast, completing almost 2 chapters and if u're lost at the start, u'll definitely end up lost at the end of the lecture :(

i'm really tired. and there's still a lot of work that i need to complete. like right now. And because of that, i haven't been having much sleep...and all the 1.5 hours of travelling in the morning everyday isn't helping. And my days usually start at 9am.

I think i'm really compromising my health for work. I know it's bad...but if i don't read a textbook or do a tutorial, i'll get even more stressed cos it'ld be even harder to catch up.

So i really need prayers. Please pray for strength, for perseverance, for peace. And also, tmr, dear and i are emcees for crusade's engine vision tea. It's held in a lecture theatre...and though i'm not nervous now, i'm sure i'll be tmr. It's my first time and both of us are doing a mini skit. So pls pray that both of us will remember to serve in joy and love, and not be too affected with how we're performing or appearing out there, at the 'stage'. And also do pray for my throat..it has gone back to the worst stage again... and i seem to have a cold / flu developing.

You know, it's always so tempting to join in the rat race. And more often than not, it's a subconscious thing...and somehow, u didn't realise it...but u're already in it. And it torments and stretches you like moulding a plasticine.. and when u finally feel the weariness, u look back and wondered why did u end up in the rat race. eventually, u end up wondering why you lost sight of God and relied on your own strength instead.