Sometimes, I just wonder why we're slogging out so hard for.

We're so caught up with the present, have we thought about its meaning? its purpose?
Yet we claim because we don't know what lies ahead, and since we've so many things on our hand now, let's just clear the load first, and reflect later. There's no time for God. No time for quiet time. No time for prayer. Any extra time is for rest, because we've been so tired out. But, after 1 pile of work is done, won't there be another pile coming in? It may not be the same kind of work, but surely, the world will never fail to occupy and cloud us in some way or another.

And when all these happen, you know you're carried away.

I wonder if heaven is going to be a busy place too? But surely, we'll be enjoying ourselves doing all sorts of things with our Maker.

These days, i look at my grandmother, and it is apparent that her body is aging, her health is deteriorating, she looks more and more feeble each week. I look at her sagging and wrinkled skin, heavy eyebags, weak limbs...and imagine myself like this 60 years down the road. When I finally reach that prime age of mine, what will i be thinking? What would i have regretted? What would my last wish be? I will think to myself, so, after living on earth for close to 80 over years, finally, now that i'm going somewhere else, what is my life all about? I don't know why i've been feeling so emotional every time i think about old age and death these days, ever since matt's grandma passed away. It's been a long time since i last attended a wake, and this time, it really reminded me that life is short.

Everyday, i hear whinings and groanings about school and fyp, especially from myself. It's as though time has taken a control over us when we do fyp. I wish God will guide us both, since work has taken a toll on matt these days. My prayer now, is to be understanding, patient and supportive, yet also to be a good reminder to him that we have to walk together as a couple in this christian road. Us, praying alone, or reading the bible alone, will not suffice. Togetherness in spending time with our God takes effort, and willingness. And i hope we can grow in that area through busy times like this. May God grant us open hearts, and the thirst to grow together.