You know, i often wondered, why God wouldn't just tell us His will. Wouldn't that make our lives much easier? Having to know what's in store for us will save us from the trouble of making difficult decisions, and also prevent us from choosing something that is not of His will. Be it the type of job, or applying for the right course, knowing what God wants out of us would definitely save us from going through the process of should i / should i not.

But then I thought and pondered harder again, and Jo's dg yesterday struck a chord to me. What if God's will is not something that you would want, would you still abide having known it beforehand? For example, if you know that God wants u to be a missionary in some poverty-stricken area, would you truly abide and go forth? Some may say yes, some may hesitate, some may just ignore. Perhaps the reason why we want to know God's will is a very selfish one....just wanting to avoid additional trouble, and sometimes, only if God's will is in line with our heart's desires, then will we go forth. Otherwise, we'll just continue to bargain with God. Secondly, because we do not know what is in store of us, it allows us to exercise our faith and therefore, allow us to develop a day to day, minute by minute, kind of personal relationship with God...constantly seeking for His guidance, wisdom and strength. That personal, intimate relationship with God is what makes Christianity so special. This close walk, with our Father, is just unreplaceable. And the promise that we hold is that God will never harm us as He loves us so much He sent His son to die for us on the cross. So, what's holding us from depending on God?

Love is something intangible. Many things are beyond our control, yet we humans, are often control freaks. Should something goes beyond our control, we become like frantic spiders. Perhaps what Jo said yesterday really makes sense. The more we try to take control of our lives, the harder it is for God to shower His blessings to us. Only if we are willing to loosen our clutch, then will we be able to receive God's goodness.

I should always be reminded, that in this relationshp with God, it's not about me. No longer is it about my welfare, my desires, my wants...but it's all about Him. Lord, help me to learn to be contented and appreciative with every single thing that you've blessed me with and let me stop asking for more.