I've been reflecting on myself intermittently the past week, and i came to realise how bad my heart condition is. Not physically, but spiritually. The thoughts that come to my mind, the emotions that whirl in my heart...they're really ugly. And I feel terribly ashamed to call myself a Christian.

I hope that the upcoming 3 day JSS camp this weekend will allow me some quiet time and be immersed in His presence. Though i'll be helping out as a teacher and it's probably gonna be quite messy with many little children running around, I am looking forward to see God working through these little ones; and when that happens, I pray that God will renew my heart. It's gonna be a busy weekend though, with joce's wedding and a probable recruitment consultation as well. Somehow, there are so many events collapsing on this single weekend.

May God purify and cleanse my heart & mind; and make me new again.