whirl of thoughts

My mind is filled with a couple of thoughts and I do not know where to place them, thus, i decided to pen it down here. Anyway, blogspot is a good avenue to practice writing and unsaturate my highly delicate brain. hahaha.

Today, me and dear went down to school for consultation with our geography lecturer regarding our upcoming project. I must say dear is really one genious, his innovative ideas for the project has brought about good comments from the lecturer. They really could think so much from so many different perspectives, from very creative ways, while most of the time, i would be feeling so lost and trying to make sense of the links they are talking about. Ha, as expected, i was quiet during 90% of the consultation today. But nonetheless, i was really proud with my dear for his abstract thinking. He has an artsy mind in an engineered environment...an all-rounder indeed. I hope his head isn't getting too big from all my praises. hee :)

Dear and i went for lunch right after our consultation, and randomly, i just asked him if i was teachable. And his answer was prompt and expected. NO. hahaha. He has told me before that i needed to be more teachable, but i always put his comment aside, thinking it's a small issue and perhaps deep down, i didn't think it was that important anyway. But today, it somehow dawned on me that hey, the bible did say about having a teachable spirit! And if i continue to keep my pride high up, and always thinking i'm right, refusing to learn and accept failure and mistakes, I wouldn't be living according to God's will. Doesn't that make me a very disgraced disciple of Christ? It's harsh reality but i figured it's time i make an effort to change.

Matthew 18:4 (New International Version)
"Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven."

The above verse illustrates a teachable spirit; being humble and willing to accept your inadequacy and learn. Often, i let my pride rule subconsciously. And as the saying goes, Pride comes before a Fall. HA! serve me right! I've fallen becos of my pride upteeen times without realising. I guess, it's time i should remind myself to stay humble and put my pride aside; with my actions answerable. It's never easy to change, especially a characteristic that has been with u for so many donkey years. But i'll try. I must try. Dear, have faith okay. Be my support as I seek God in this area for renewal :) be patient with me too!

It's rather interesting how i was studying my organic chemistry reactions today, and this thought popped into my head. Dont you realise that the entire world is made up of reactions? I know it's funny to have such a bewildering thought, but chemistry blows my mind sometimes. I was wondering why there were so many reactions around (cos i had to study and memorise that many! irritating!) and it just dawned on me that there are actually reactions everywhere! look at it in this way...biological reactions, human behavioural reactions, sociological reactions, chemical reactions, physical reactions, reactions in a relationship.. everything is of reactions! and like chemistry, they can be classified under radical or non-radical reactions. just like radical human reaction vs non-radical human reaction. haha! okay, even if you dont, i found this rather interesting!

Just a while ago, i was watching this HK drama and there was this grand daddy that suddenly found out he was suffering from dementia and parkinson's disease. And he was a principal of a school, treated with great respect. Yet, having working so hard for so many years in his life, getting the status he wanted, the material wealth he yearned, at the end of it all...when your body starts to fail, there's no way you can control it. Sometimes, even medicine can't. Only God can. And such common scene in dramas actually puts across a very simple yet important point. You can't control your life...after slogging so hard for grades; power; money; fame, when the end comes...we're not in control anymore. So logically speaking, shouldn't we just let God take control since ultimately, He's gonna be the one controlling your life. Everything of this earth will fade one day. Let us be engineered for Christ.

As we often say, always strive for things that are eternal and look past things that are temporal. Cliche but how many of us actually live out to the above statement?

okay, enough of my random ramblings! time to start my engine going again!