i'll always be by your side, i promise.

dear's currently feeling very stressed :(

He has gone to bed about an hour ago at 2am, cos he couldn't take the tiredness anymore.
But he hasn't finished his assignment which has to be handed in on monday.
According to him, it's really tough and the lecturer didn't really teach properly..it's tedious and time consuming.
He persisted and tried to do as much as he could, but inevitably, stress crept in and overwhelmed him.
He hasn't recovered yet..from the conversations i had with him over the phone, i could hear his coarse voice and the coughs he had to clear those irritating phlegm.
sigh.

i really wish i could take upon his stress and make it mine.
i want his cheery self back again.

because of the pertinent lack of time, he had to stay home to finish up his work tmr.
we won't be able to meet up tmr :(

yes, i know it's exaggerating to some, knowing that we meet almost 6 days a week (cos wed is my free day - so i stay home). We usually meet on sat for a short while to attend cell, and sun, he wld drop by my house after his service and we wld do work in the aft. okay, i know we're sticky but we love spending time with each other.

we always have this perpetural sense of longing for each other's presence.

and i miss him so much, it's making me sad :(
thinking of him has been a great blessing; yet it makes me miss him more and more.

sigh, i really think nus is shortening our life span.
it really is.
although most of the time, stress is undeniably caused by ourselves;
we can't deny the fact that the envt affects us one way or another.
for eg, we can't possibly ask the lecturer to stop bombarding us with assignments with tight datelines! and we can't escape from doing them cos it's also our responsibility as a student!
Not that i'm whining or trying to push the blame to nus,
but i really really feel it's deteriorating our health.
Dear said that this's his first time falling ill due to lack of sleep as a result of school. perhaps, even rj or ri wasn't as stressed as nus for him.

lack of sleep. stress. demoralised. --> how many of us have not experienced this here in nus? And i'm limitting this to normal average students (not those smart geeks who are exceptions)

maybe it's just s'pore education system. we can question the suicidal rates of students here.

having been to cambodia, the locals were surprisingly shocked that there're singaporeans jumping down from buildings when they have the capacity to live. Yet over there, despite all the harsh living conditions, they still strived to live simply and happily.

life here in s'pore is too messy. too noisy. too crowded. too busy.

but of course, i'm thankful for compared to many other countries, singapore's not as chaotic politically, economically and socially. so thank God.

it's 3.10 now..i shld sleep soon since i have service later.

as i thought about tmr, the rush of tutorials...as i think of the day after tmr, the start of school, the 2 labs (5 hours in total) to attend... my heart feels like a stone.

i thought this week would be more of a breeze, but i'm wrong. there isn't gonna be a break.

too much work; too little time.

and i miss you so...wish you wld get well soon.
and wish we cld spend quiet time together soon.

i miss your presence,

so very much.