thank you all who prayed for matthias :) His tests went well today. Thank God for His grace. It's been a really long day for us. Try to rest well okay dear :)

Feeling so sick of school, or rather studies...Dear said the engine students are like human machines...working non-stop, and they don't break down. That was a funny analogy about engineering life...the continuous deadlines and all. It's as though the ppl here don't need a break. I don't understand why..don't they feel tired? Even though i tried my best to do work, i have a limited capacity, and somehow, there's this mechanism in me that tells me when it's time to take a break and smell the flowers. i guess, maybe the reason why the ppl arnd me are able to work all the time is their passion for the course, of which i know i don't have it.

And it's tough to admit it, but my biggest sin in my life is jealousy. I have a jealous streak in me which is really bad. I get jealous so easily, over anything and everything. Sometimes, it's just so ridiculous why i get jealous over such trivial issues that makes myself wonder. Urgh. It'ld be such a breakthrough if i can get rid of this one BIG sin in my life.

As i read through dear's post, i get sentimental too. These days, i was bugged by the fact that i don't have many friends, compared to so many other people. sometimes, i really feel so lonely in chem eng.... Everyone is busy pursuing their goals, but who's willing to look back and give me support? But then again, i thank God for friend(s) that ultimately chose to stand by me.

dav needs to learn to be thankful... :)