i hate saying good-byes

:(

Auntie Christine left this morning for Canada. Don't know when i'll see her again.
4 months just flew past like that....
And i've been so caught up with sch the past few weeks, i hardly had any time to bond with her other than dinners and choosing earrings.
She has added so much joy and liveliness in our family, and now that she's gone, the house feels so quiet.
Initially, i was wondering why she was gonna stay so long (4 months was a long time), but now...it just didn't feel like 4 months at all...felt like 1 month.
Yesterday she told me, now dear can sleep in the guest room, on a nice comfy bed, rather than the poor hard sofa...and she said, 'good riddance right'. she jokes a lot haha.
I'm gonna miss those silly jokes she always make, and all the free earrings and necklaces, and above all, her presence.
I'm already so used to having her around, but now that she's gone, i don't know how i'm going to adapt in this home without her.
I'm sure uncle bobby misses her too much..he calls her every single day. What a sweet hubby.
She says i'm her favourite niece, She's my favourite Auntie too.
When i hugged her goodbye today at the airport, i just know deep down, that i'm so gonna miss her.
As we waved goodbye, i just pray that God will use her richly as a blessing to many. She has made a difference to us all positively and her love and respect for God has made me admire her greatly.
Goodbye Auntie Christine, i love you and i'll miss you much. In fact, i'm already missing you...

My heart right now feels like smth is missing, and i can't get myself down to study...i can't do anything but sigh and i can't express my feelings to anyone but this blog cos dear's having his test right now...
sigh, i dun like this feeling. It feels so sour. so very sour.
and this feeling will come again this may when i leave for japan... i hope dear and i will stay strong even though it's for a short period of time.
The feeling of missing someone dear is simply awful...

For now, i just pray for journey mercy as my auntie embarks on her journey back home and that dear's test will be smooth.

Take care Auntie Christine and May God Bless You.

i...really...hate saying goodbyes :(