i'm supposed to love reactors! but why do i hate it?! :(

i reaally need the passion for Chemical REACTORS.

:(

i have absolutely no interest and no passion for it and with my very poor fundamentals, it's really painstaking to study for my next 2116 exam - chemical kinetics and reactor design.

it's really gross. i did really badly for my mid-terms too :( save meee. i really don't have the passion to know how all these reactors work, whatever it may be - batch, CSTR, or PFTR! :(

and it doesn't help that the exam is all mcq! and it's supposed to test more on our concepts which i don't have! :( mcq has no method marks and that's why i'm whining! and i have never been lucky in guessing games. ssssiiiggghhhh.

i don't want to fail and retake this module!

it's gross! :(
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*Edit: And i just remembered one day after tutorial, when i approached my lecturer TTC for help regarding 1 question, he said this to me in a very frank manner ," i'm not going to tell you the answer. You need to generate more heat in your brain." Thanks a lot man...wad a hurtful remark haha. This shows that i'm in a very terrible state. And my question was thus left hanging in the air ever since (actually, i don't rmb it anymore. tts worse)
And no, my brain wasn't motivated enough to generate more heat ever since :(