I've been having insomnia for the past 3 or 4 nights. Even though my body feels like it weighs a tonne, i still couldn't get to sleep. My heart has been palpitating extremely fast these days (even now as i type this) and no matter what psychoing i do to myself, it doesn't help to slow it down. My throat has been really sore and my nose gets blocked every night, thus making it even more difficult for me to sleep cos i can't breathe through my nose and it hurts when i breathe through my mouth. With the lack of rest, i've been feeling really lethargic and feeble.

Perhaps i'm anxious or nervous for my paper tmr? Well... but i don't really feel nervous. Just.. scared? And my dad said i couldn't sleep cos i've used my brain too much. Well, i hope so haha. I think it's true, cos when i close my eyes, i see all the equations floating around my head. I think i even dreamt that the reactors became alive and wanted to eat me up. oh my goodness.

But dear has been really nice (as usual) hee hee. Been showing me lots and lots of support and encouragement. He just smsed me saying "Baby. with you alright? praying that you'll feel better. during holidays, i'll teach you how to sleep. :) Love you" HAHA. dear, i hope you don't mind me disclosing your sms. i think you're so cute...teach me how to sleep! i'm interested to know how!

God has been good to me too. He's been sustaining me all these while. I broke down yesterday morning cos i felt my parents didn't understand the stress i was going through when i was also studying for their sake...like wanting to upkeep my scholarship so they don't have to pay for my fees. But welll, i think i wasn't very nice to them either when i'm down with work.

Okay, i got to rush for my grandma's bday lunch now though i initially wanted to write about faith in this entry. Another time perhaps! :)