dearest is getting stressed over her last paper, because she's scared she won't do well.
Something that is really hard for me to understand, as i don't ever seem to fear failing. Well, maybe because i've failed before. But i don't think thats it. For we all have to fail in some point of our lives. For me, i've failed Satan may times. (irrelevant, but NATAS is SATAN spelt backwards, and NATAS is our National Association of Travel Agents, Singapore and it also stands for National Academy of Television Arts and Sciences of the USA) Anyway, I want to watch the movie The number, 23; although its a thriller i think, but i really like mysteries. But back to the point, my dearest is really stressed, and she keeps pushing herself to go a little bit further, so she can do better. And once again, its endless, but she works really hard and i applaud her for that. From another point of view, Michael Mak always says it shouldn't make you lose sleep. But even so, those words will never seem to penetrate engineering heads; its just too irrational. Sleep lost = more studying time = worse results = less of a future. I applaud the New Paper's article on degree does not equal pay rise, at least its a message for many of us. So anyway, there's nothing wrong with failing. Most people won't look down on you, although some will; but they don't matter much either way. If God wants us to fail, he'll let us fail, he might even make us fail. But God does not label you as a good-for-nothing even if you do. He won't applaud you even if you reach the top of the economic ladder. No one will. At the end of the day, no one is going to care about you, except Him. That is why, they always say, it gets lonely at the top. Because at the top, everyone cares about themselves, but the weak always stick together; its a battle between quantity and quality, althought quality here is defined in its own worldly ways. Nevertheless, if there is one point one must remember in this journey of life is that, many things do not matter at the end of the day. An A or a F will not matter, neither will a degree or a diploma. Whether one lives in poverty, or in riches, or even if in sadness or happiness, it does not really matter. What matters is that you have made your life worthwhile, made it meaningful. And if one wants to wait till he's 88 and on his deathbed surrounded by the expensive equipment and gold coins by his bed, (well to bring it one step further, maybe all those sweet young things after the old man's money on the bed too), i have nothing to say. But we are young, and we can still change, we can still make a difference in our own lives, in the world. Your happyness does not come from short term successes, but it comes from living your dream; whether it is to be in love, to fly to the moon, or start a neighbourhood of friends. Do not fear being looked down upon, for those who look down on you are so naive. And you are silly to think they could ever look down upon you, for you, in God's confidence, have so much more than them. Believe it, and do not look to prove it; for God will make it known. So look forward, look past the grade, look past the people who look down on you, and see the happiness in store, see the dream (I dream of heaven, i dream of you) =)

Psalm 131
1 My heart is not proud, O LORD,
my eyes are not haughty;
I do not concern myself with great matters
or things too wonderful for me.

2 But I have stilled and quieted my soul;
like a weaned child with its mother,
like a weaned child is my soul within me.

3 O Israel, put your hope in the LORD
both now and forevermore.

I love you dear =)