CENSORED. (only meant for matthias ong)

Sorry darling for my wild emotions today. Sorry for being so pessimisstic all the time. I know you've sacrificed and done so much for me since school started, and i truly am appreciative. Yet, i let my emotions rule over me, and ended up feeling stressed, worried, emotional. Many times, i really wanted to lean on God and I prayed. But, i guess i haven't fully surrendered it to God, leaving me overwhelmed with worries. School has been busy for me...and we haven't really spent time much tog every since sch started too. But i know it's impt, and thus, we'll definitely have to make time for each other. I know our hearts are with each other, and i know you're there for me. I want you to know that despite how busy i am, i want to be there for you too. It's just really upsetting and depressing that my throat has been sore for almost more than a month now...and it just seems like it's never going to get better and now, i have 4 ulcers on my gums. It hurts everytime i drink, eat or talk. Both my gums and throat. It's terrible...it's one of the reasons why i'm getting insomnia these days too. With all the travelling and the lack of rest... somehow it just caused me to breakdown today. But i'm comforted by the fact that u''re always there for me...even though we're not physically together. Thank you dear... i'm feeling so much better now. Sorry for today...and i just want you to know that i love you :) We'll embrace storms and work through it together. With you, always and evermore :)