haywired

Seriously, my health is screwed-up. These days, i'm really questioning and asking God why i'm put to go through such a long period of poor health and low immune system. But then again, everytime i question God, i never fail to tell myself that it's all my doing... since the body is mine, i have the free will to control it, and i know i haven't been resting as much as i should, and i have been compromising a lot for my health.

To tell you the truth, i have since visited the doctor for almost 8-10 times since May, and have taken at least 5 courses of antibiotics. And to date, ever since i complained about my sorethroat, it's still persisting till today and it really is very frustrating. There are times i have broken down over my health, because i simply don't seem to get well. Of course, i did cure with the help of antibiotics, but it seems like recovery only lasted for at least 5 days so far, before everything bounces back. It's really strange...there's this potent virus that's been haunting me, which doesn't seem to go away no matter what i do (other than having adequate rest so far, cos i really have too much sch work to do!! i just can't possibly sleep 8 hours a day!) My brother told me that he had such persistent sorethroat last year as well, and it still comes back to him, but as long as his immune system is strong, he'll be able to control it.

Seriously, what virus is this? I'm so sick of it. Just last night, i felt so horrible...i was on the verge of healing, when suddenly, my nose acted up, and my throat felt so very sore. I went to bed early, and it wasn't much better today. I just went to see the doctor...and he said antiobiotics was necessary this time. The last time i went (1-2 weeks ago), i told him i don't want antibiotics cos i know it weakens my immune system everytime i take it. But the doctor refused this time round, and said i really need to recover. I think he enjoys seeing me cos for the past 5 months, because each time i see him, $50 goes into his pocket. My throat is really sore right now, and i can't talk at all... i haven't been able to talk much to dear as well, so these days, i'll probably be very subdued and perhaps, gloomy. It's hard to be happy when u're sick. oh boy.

On a side note, poor guo yi has been down with viral fever too. I feel really bad, cos i think it's my fault...since i dyd hysys tutorial with him..and he developed a fever after that, and he hasn't been going to school for almost 5 days now. Sorry gy. Hope u get well soon k....

Dear's having a test tmr too...and i really want to support him and not make him worry about my health. Darling, i'm with you alright...no matter how much you score, i'll always love and cherish you. Remember what you always tell me, "Your F is my A" and it works the same for you as well. God provides, just do your best..i know you're always trying :) And i really hope i don't pass my virus to you...please rest well and take good care of your health okay. i'll try my best to get well for you and for God. I really hope i can recover...and we can talk and laugh endlessly like before :) i miss you. Will be keeping you in prayers for tmr's test.

School is gonna be very very very very very busy till end november where exams will begin. I've got 2 tests, 2 presentations, 3 projects upcoming...coupled with graded homework and assignments. May God's grace help us all to tide through this period, and grant us good health so we can be in the optimum condition to do our head-wreacking projects.