distracted me

there's this thing about me (perhaps some 'special' hormones) that makes me feel for people very easily, esp for people i love and care for...which means to say, i will feel very painful if the person i love has to go through pain...i feel sad and cry if the person i love feel sad. i feel worried if the person i care for has gotten him or herself into a mess and so on and so forth. I don't know if it's a good thing or not....cos it affects me really badly at times. For eg, if my friend's parents pass away, i'll be so worried, brood over it the whole night, and feel so sad to the extent it disturbs me from whatever i was supposed to do. I guess i'm just emotional? i don't know. sometimes, these feelings i feel for these loved ones can affect me physically (lack of sleep, pulpitating heart beats etc). And when i feel like i've sinned or am a bad person for being selfish and self-centered...i'll blame myself and have this mentality that i shouldn't be like that..and that God will punish me for being like that. But then again, because of my softness for always feeling bad to people, i am very easily taken advantage of. bahhh. life is so hard.

i'm sure dear knows this best about me haha.

it's not a really good thing to actually feel bad all the time and with my fickle-mindedness and over-sensitiveness...it can be really heart-wrenching to me and to the people around me.