FYP, a glimpse to the future?

I just had a short day of lab from 3-6.30pm today, and it totally drained me off already. Can't imagine a full day of lab. Oh well.

Since matthias is busy away with his own research, i've been pretty much left by myself most of the time since my chem eng friends are all busy with their own fyp and attending different lectures from me. On the way back home from school today (which took me 2 hours -_- cos of the heavy traffic), it just felt really really long, as though the journey is never-ending. It's been a while since I last took public transport to and fro from sch, since i haven't gone back to school much during the holidays. It's kinda dreadful and tiring when the trian is packed like sardines, and having to wait for the infamous bus 14 which takes forever (i waited like almost 20 mins at tanah merah! which never came actually since 45 came first). And when you know you're pms-ing and gets emo, that's the worst part cos it simply takes any form of optimism away from you.

So anyhow, I was just thinking if my life routine is going to be like this after i graduate. When i start work, it's gonna be like 8am-5pm at least, every single day, taking public transport to and fro. Since matthias will most probably not be working in the same company as me, i'll be pretty much be left alone as it is now. (no, i'm not complaining..just stating facts :P) Gosh, i shudder at the thought of it. And i suddenly just don't wanna graduate. fyp is not something that i fancy, but i really do cherish the many lectures i have with friends like doreen in yr sem 1. We were always sitting together, chit-chatting, eating lunches, having each other around. Now, things are so individualized, i ain't used to it. Yes, timetables are much flexible now...but on the contrary, it seems so hard to control it especially when you're just cooped up in the lab. Time flies like nobody's business. Not only then, you can't just stop the experiment anytime you want...there're other factors to consider too. I sigh, because i really dislike my lifestyle now (though i've only just tasted it).

Anyway, i think i'm just feeling a tad lonely/empty, now that i'm pretty much left on my own all the time. So all my emotions, vents, frustrations, thoughts, are kept within me...i hope this pessimissm won't stay for long.