Hanging on Faith

I've been really tired. Not so much because I have been spending hours in the lab (for the hours i have spent is nothing really, compared to many out there)...but more so emotionally. It has been very discouraging so far, in terms of my fyp, as my relationship with my phd mentor has been rather strained. On one hand, I admit I am slow, careless, dumb...but on the other hand, I just needed some time to familiarise myself..afterall, i'm doing many of the procedures for the first time. Yet, harsh remarks were thrown to me, and i just had to swallow them, and work harder. I've been trying, really... And i'm wondering why God wanted me to do this project, since it was my 1st choice..and how i felt i had the conviction to do this one. Sadly, many times, things don't turn out my way. I can't expect everything to turn out rosy and nice. But, I really do envy my friends who have got nice prof and phds working with them, it makes fyp so much happier.

I can't deny i've been very discouraged. But I know i have to keep going on, afterall, i know God has a reason for this. I just want to trust Him that He will carve a way out for me. And I pray that my project will glorify Him in whatever way I can.

God, you know my heart. You know what i'm thinking. You know what i want. Help me to listen to what You want.