A love-hate relationship with driving

Ever since i've gotten my license, i have driven quite a few times east-west already. And i must say, it's really not easy :( I got myself all so excited after i passed my driving test, but when i started to drive the road, it was really scary.

It's not that I can't drive properly, but i really freak out when cars horn at me. The first time i was horned was when I was supposed to turn right, but i was waiting for the green arrow filter ot come on first...the caucassian driver behind me horned so loud i almost jumped out of the seat. Singaporean drivers...really impatient huh? :( And the rest of the horns mostly came from parking...because i took immensely long to park, and because there are cars waiting for me to park...i always panick and got myself all worked out such that my alignment of the car will always be off, and i'll get myself all confused whether i should turn right, turn left, return the car, make the car straight blah blah blah.

I just can't park! :( And because my other half wants me to learn parking properly and independently, he refused to tell me how to park even if there were cars busy horning at me! That got me all flustered and helpless. And i always end up parking very badly. I even knocked down a cone today and it's terribly demoralising.

I always tell myself that it's alright, because I only passed my driving 1 week ago. It should be reasonable that I would take some time to be accustomed to singapore's roads and road drivers, and learn how to park with a different car without using kerbs like how i was taught in the school, right?

But, perhaps, deep down, it's just an excuse...

Driving isn't that fun afterall. Was it supposed to be fun, anyway?