My dearest is going through a period of intense spiritual warfare, and i'm not oblivious to it. =)
Truly, she knows God is always with her, just as i am....
With that in mind =) We do not need to worry, in faith, we all know God is in control.
We fight with a winning mentality in our heads.

I haven't been blogging much here, in a way, its because i've been a little tired with so many things happening. I just feel lazy to come online, think and type. However, this blog is not just my blog, but an output of me and my dearest's life, rantings and love. And i so want to be part of it.

With that said, truly i understand my dearest when she mentions so many things. The one that strikes me most though, is perhaps, her relationships with her friends. Eternal Friendships. Personally, i am older, i have been through many more experiences than my darling. Friends i've made in recent times or from years past have been special to me. Being in this relationship has deprived me of having time with them in so many ways, and in ways, i too regret it. My friends have been so gracious however, and everytime i can't meet them, they still treat me with all love, as true friends.
I went through many struggles on friendship, on searching for true friends and eternal friends. I've looked through my friends not just once but many times, and each friend is different in their own way. I always strived to be the best friend i could be, before this relationship; but now i can't. Now i have to be the best darling to my dear all the time. Everyday, i know i'm not doing as much in each and every friendship i have. But i do hope they understand, and i believe they do, and they have been nothing short of wonderful. I deeply feel such heartfelt thanks to them. I haven't forgotton these friends, and forever, i will remember them and keep them in my heart. And to me, its not about how many times we meet, neither is it about how much fun we have going out tgt. Its not about ourselves, rather its about others, and i believe each and every friend of mine epitomises that description in such a personifying manner. And even so, they are so much happier, seeing me so happy, and i shall do my best to make them happy too. Thank you my dear friends.
Notwithstanding, my darling does not need to worry about her friendships, but continually try to make her friends happy, just as she has always done, because she does have such true friends as well, and thus, thank you to my darling's dear friends too. =)

Secondly, her relationship with her parents. I understand. =) Somehow we thank God for the hope he has given, and in faith we must continue to work on this. We must believe my dearest's parents will be saved one day, that they will gradually accept me. And one day, that happiness will come. If God wills it, who can stand against Him.

Thirdly, SM, Being Prayer I/C & Studies. These are struggles, but much will be learnt from it. And i'll be with my dearest all the way. God with us.

Fourthly, Critical Mind. Heh! I struggled with this in the past before, and i have been critical many times in my life.... With more thinking, comes more critical thinking, this is inevitable. Let it not overwhelm us however, and edifying, encouraging words are undoubtedly so much more powerful.
We once remembered this verse within my cell.
Proverbs 16:24 Pleasant words are like a honeycomb, Sweetness to the soul and health to the bones.
We do not want such critical minds, rather we want discerning minds.
As always...
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him and he shall direct your paths."
Remember and Seek God in everything you do, and this mind will go away.

I am sure my dearest will struggle with this, just as i will struggle with many worldly things, but...
We always will struggle with this world, but let us not turn to it. Rather, we turn to God.
This is the spiritual battle we will continue to face, and Satan will always seek to test us to our limits. Yet. 1 Cor 10:13 says "God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyong whad you are able, but with temptation will also make the way of secape that you may be able to bear it." Do not worry, because God is in control; but through such struggles, learn, seek greated understanding and grow closer to Him.

Lastly...My dear has heard God's voice, and i pray she will always continue to seek and hear that voice every single moment of her life.

Isaiah 43:2 When you pass through deep waters, I will be with you; your troubles will not overwhelm you. When you pass through fire, you will not be burned; the hard trials that come will not hurt you. Isaiah 43:5 Do not be afraid - I am with you! We sometimes think we have more than we can deal with, we don't, God is always with us. Call on Him to get us through the tough times.

God was with you, and he is with you now. =)
My darling, i love you, and i am with you too.

Our relationship will continue growing. We are with God. We truly love each other, always and forever. And we truly love God, always and forever. =)

In faith, Matthias