There she rambles again....

Firstly, thanks for the sweet post darling :) love you so much too.

Thanks to everyone who are concerned, I'm feeling much better already. Been to the doctor, taken antibiotics as usual, and thankful that my sickness didn't escalate to asthma this time or it'ld be such a hassle.

I think I've been thinking quite a bit cos I often find myself swarmed with a plethora of thoughts, yet, i just can't piece it together and articulate it in a manner for someone to understand. There's like a kaleideidoscope of mini thoughts floating around, but there's no glue to link it all together to make logic or sense. It gets me a little agitated sometimes and i end up rambling on and on.

In life, each of us are bound to rub shoulders with someone or accidentally step someone's toes. And often, there would be people who wont' agree with our thoughts, people who would nod their heads and affirm, and people who would just be listeners without giving any opinions. Today, i realised that there are people who don't agree with what dear thinks regarding certain issues. They think he's too smart for his own good. They think he's too over confident with his christianity basics that might cause him to falter and lead his disciples without equipping them with the basic foundations. Knowing him for quite some time, and being in a relationship with him for almost a year, I can say that i know my dear well enough. To me, he's someone who is very confident in his faith and he assured and said his confidence comes from God. And thats the way its supposed to be! Yet, sometimes he does want to prove himself right and there are times that he's been proven wrong. But he does humble himself and learn and grow. I must admit he's much more teachable than I am! I'm not taking a biased view and saying that dear is always right. I asked him several questions today, and through discernment, I know that my darling is not heading in the wrong way. During discipleship group yesterday, which he led for combined DG cos i was ill, I was really proud of him. I was proud of the way he handled and looked at each person's testimony and faith. And i was observing our disciples as he was leading...and truly, I felt Huay Lian and Franco really took back a lot from yesterday's DG; that they saw how powerful a testimony is and where our basic foundation of christianity starts from - faith.

I just want to tell my darling this. There are times in life when what we think will not coincide so nicely with what other people think. People can deny and look at our faith in disgust. People can claim themselves to be right, and pin us down. We too, as humans, criticize and bad-mouth people at times too. Don't we? But ultimately, all these can't break our faith. And i know it won't break yours, cos u're one christian whom i know has great spiritual maturity and confidence in the Lord. But i just wanna say that in this christian walk, you're not walking alone. I'm walking with you...so even if someone disagrees with you, let's discern and check with the truth (the bible) if you're really wrong. And we'll work on it together. Teachable spirit right? But if we're right cos it's in line with God's will, we thank God for wisdom and we impart it to our disciples n multiply their faith. I know all these doesn't affect you much, but i just wanna affirm and let u know that as your soulmate, I'm with you. To grow in faith and in love. Afterall, God always allow us to make mistakes for greater development to better ourselves. (:

Another issue is friendships. I must really say sorry to Jess dearie! Babe! Really sorry i haven't met u up since uhhh when school started? I think so! i know its been sooo long! :( But glad you understand my workload in school..and the times i needed to spend personal time with matt too!
But pls don't ever think i'm neglecting you or that our friendship is getting dry and stuff like that k! I'm thankful we still update each other though i know i can't relaly talk very long these days cos of workload. Unlike those times in the past...hai. But still! i love you! and thank you for ur wonderful friendship! That even though we cldn't meet up very often, you still show me your support, understanding, concern, prayer and so much so much. :) you rock! the bestest pal! huggies.

Read one of my friend's bloggy and thought about friendships. Nowadays, i hardly used MSN much. Ever since i got attached, i've been so hooked to talking to my dalring over the phone plus there's really not much time to chat on msn with the amount of work. There are times i browsed through my msn chat list, and realised i don't know who to talk to amongst the regular msn people. Unlike times in jc...where i would go online, and poof! 7 conversation windows working simultaneously...lasting through my endless studying nights. Don't get me wrong dear. I don't miss MSN. hahaha! in fact, i'm quite happy i'm no longer addicted to it. When dear first started to woo me, he was saying how he don't believe in msn in the sense that, it is not a place that forge or build friendships. Phone is better, cos it's more personal. Yet, stubborn me refuse to accept it cos i was happily indulging myself in all the typing and emoticons and sending of songs here and there. Today, i look at myself and hey darling! YOU'RE RIGHT! MSN is a super bad way of building friendships. All it does is convenience in sending files and asking questions like 'How do you do this question and what is your answer?'

I think i've wrote so much, and haven't really talked about friendships yet. Actually, there's a lot going through my mind right now, but i'm getting a bit apprehensive with my blog entry lengths. seems so long. Am i that LOR SOR? oh no....so, i guess i'll leave that to another time. Come to think of it, maybe i'm quite a deep person huh? haha. I always think i'm some immature childish girl...but dear choose and believe that i'm spiritually mature within and that i'm growing. haha.

and another question i found interesting that i came up with.
"Do couples grow more and more like each other after time?"

cos i find me and dear getting more and more alike! in terms of the way we talk, think, act, choose and so much more. or is it just mere telepathy? hmmm...