After 4 years...God's plan has finally been revealed.

Finally, she replied. And her reply took me by surprise. She's no longer the girl i met 4 years ago during orientation. She has changed, she has grown and definitely more mature than she was back then. And i'm glad that she didn't hold any hatred or grudge against me. Our misunderstanding has finally been cleared.

It was all according to His plan. Really. This whole 4 years of friendship has become a great testimony of how God has led me through out of this struggle that i've been battling since young. A battle that was fought, and allowed me to grow and mature into who i'm today. It's all God's grace and i had no idea this was what God planned for me all this while until today. After 4 years of praying, pleading God to reveal to me His plan and His reason for all these pain and struggle, i finally understand His plans...and His reasons for each and every incident that happened. It was an exciting and challenging journey, both emotionally and spiritually. I've often been pushed to my limits, yet God would never make it too tough for me to handle. He knows my threshold.

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."

1 Corinthians 10:13

Perhaps this struggle could have ended earlier, but God has His plans for each and every choice that i make during this journey. I might have made wrong choices at some points, but somehow, He would still lead me through it. He really, is the Alpha & Omega.

Well, in all honesty, i don't have the slightest idea if she would reply or not. Yet, i still held that hope that she might reply. Reading her reply, I just felt numb yet glad that she has matured and grown. However, she has chosen to move on her life without me and be who she wants to be. This is her choice and i will respect it. This is a friendship that was probably not meant to work out, but it's all part of God's plan. And today, both of us has seen a different perspective of the friendship we once had. I guess we still do hold the memories we once had and harbour no regrets for the 4 years of friendship we had, but this was not meant to be.

Thinking back, when dear came to know who she was and how our friendship wasn't what it was on the surface, he told me that he felt this friendship was perhaps not meant to work out and that God has a purpose for it. I think God has already prompted me about His plan through dear. But at that time, i just felt mean to end the friendship and i didn't know how to go about handling this struggle...i thought it would be really mean to just break off like that. Now, i think God has sent dear to be His messenger... ;)

I feel like i'm finally out of the tunnel now. But somehow, having been through so much for the past 4 years and having seen how much she has changed and seeing how God has answered my prayers, it just feels like i'm finally out on a leash. I am no longer controlled by Man and it's time to move on with a life without her. I always wondered if God wanted me to bring His love to her, thinking that this was perhaps God's reason for putting her in my life, but now, i realised that the person wasn't meant to be.

Like what dear said, we're just like an unequally yoked couple, that wasn't meant to work out.

Nevertheless, i'm glad things turned out this way after so many years of uncertainty. Thank you Father for leading me out of the tunnel. Thank you for showing me Your way. This's just the beginning of my entire christian life ahead :)