module woes or...perhaps, blessing in disguise?

sometimes, things just don't turn out the way you want them to. And when that happens, your emotions usually go topsy-turvy for a moment before you start accepting things the way they are and getting back on track.

That's exactly what i went through yesterday. My SEP mapping has been approved, and all my modules have been planned out nicely, until i found out that one of my core modules for the next semester has 2 pre-requisites to be fulfilled. And yes, those 2 pre-requisites are the 2 very core modules which i have successfully mapped over to zurich. I actually sensed that this might happen a few weeks back, but i just put it off, assuming that i won't be that unlucky. So, i just left things the way they were and didn't bother to check all the pre-requisites that my modules require for the upcoming semester.

It wasn't until yesterday that i decided to check since my chem eng timetable was out... i just wanted to play safe because my bidding starts next monday. And to my horror, my nightmare came true. I was so despaired and got myself all flustered, because that means i have to take all 5 core modules next semester, and i have to re-map my modules over to zurich all over again which is a real hassle! I was dismayed and i didn't know what to do but to whine and wonder why i didn't check way beforehand and didn't prepare myself earlier since i actually got that premonition already. I figured that i can't blame God or anyone else, but myself, for overlooking. Dear asked me to pray immediately because i seemed to lost control of myself (okay, a bit exaggerating) and so, i prayed. And i realised that God actually did prompted me way beforehand, since it was kind of a sudden thing to realise about this pre-requisites thing in the middle of my holidays! But i was too lazy and i took it for granted that everything would be alright. (see, God actually provides sign posts for us to look out)

Thank God for soulmates though. He was there beside me when all that happened, and he started helping me to email the chem eng coordinators and my mentor and professor in charge to help me request if it's possible to take the module without fulfilling the pre-requisites. And after all that emails, their reply was unanimous..which was to either take all 5 core next sem and remap my mods or take that core module in sem 7. So, that means, our request failed :(

And after much consideration and discussion, i decided to just take all 5 core next sem (afterall, that's what everyone else is taking) and then map extra electives over to zurich. I must say, my soulmate was really so sweet..cos he actually went to the extent of searching other electives for me to map over..and he really found quite a few! i was really touched dear, thank you so much.

Actually, it's not a big problem.. i was really over-reacting. Just that, i was looking forward to taking 2 lesser core modules next sem so i won't be so stressed. But then again, i guess, God has His reasons! thinking about it, it wld be quite unsafe and risky to map core modules over, because if it's screwed up (like zurich suddenly don't offer them anymore or timetable clashes) my fyp year will be screwed up eventually. So thank God for the chaos! haha.

Lesson learnt: Just trust God and seek Him whenever trouble arises and be attuned to his signposts.

I went all panicky and disappointed just over a little hiccup (and it's not like a major problem! it's just an overlook on my part). But thank God for him, because he was there to remind me to go and pray and seek God before making any decisions, even though such decisions may seem trivial. It was quite funny actually...cos dear did try to say nicely to me to ask me go pray and i refused to and just contined whining...until he had to point his finger and shout ' GO AND PRAY! NOW!'. so fierce...but it was effective. cos i did pray in the end, and he apologised for shouting after that. (I THINK HE GOT IT ALL PLANNED HAHA) .....

I've been too self-reliant, and perhaps, that's the reason why i feel i've been straying from Him. After a short heart-to-heart talk with dear, we came up with an action point for myself to help me grow closer to God and that is: To seek God FIRST (by praying) before making any decisions, be it big or small.

Hopefully, that would allow me to be less self-reliant and when i start depending on God more, i can then realise how weak i really am, and how big my God is. i think i need help to swallow my pride and be humble.

Brothers and sisters in christ, please help me by reminding me to work on this action point whenever i'm remembered or thought of. i hope these reminders will come in frequent haha.

:)

module woes? nah, it's God's blessing afterall!