Tugging emotions
And so CNY just flew by like that. In a flash. Definitely, i had a good time with my family but it was too fast. I really wished we could spend more time together no matter what we're doing, be it karoke, eating, chatting, playing mahjong etc. But time doesn't wait.
It's a naggy feeling that i'll be leaving in less than 4 days time. While i'm partly excited, i'm also very hesistant to part with my family and the fact that i've to constantly watch out for myself and dear doesn't put me at ease too. I have been hearing scary stories about the gypsies in Europe, and how easy it is to get pick pocketed...and it really scares me. I can't imagine losing my passport, can you? It doesn't help that i've a natural tendency to over-worry too.
Being on exchange, i don't really have any expectations on the amount of travelling and countries i want to visit, but rather, i just pray and really hope that things will be fine at home; that my parents and brother are safe and healthy and that on my side, dear and i will be safe too. I guess instead of worrying so much, i should really place my trust in God that He will keep my family and us safe and healthy. There's really endless things for me to worry about...from where to safekeep my money, how to separate my money, whether my luggage has exceeded its limit, whether i can get along with my roomy etc etc. I should just leave it to God; that itself will be a step of faith.
My mom was just lying on my bed a few minutes ago (she rarely does this), and she started talking to me. Earlier today, she said "you're going for 6 months. you won't be hearing me asking you to eat vitamins and asking you to drink barley water anymore". That tugged my heart. I will really miss my family. How much? Well, i'm already starting to feel homesick 4 days before my departure. It's perhaps time i learn to be independent.
Anyway, here are some pictures i took during cny.
Baby Bernard with his grandpa on the 1st day of CNY
Family. I really love this picture.
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