I've got Swine!
But I know i'll recover, not just because i'm young and supposedly quite healthy;
but because i've got the will to live, to try my best to fulfill the promise i made =)

Today I woke up, feeling quite misunderstood,
but that is purely down to the fact i purposely let myself get misunderstood.
I seem to do things randomly, but when its actually down to me consciously varying what i'm doing.
For example, sometimes i choose to be nice, and sometimes i choose not to be so nice...
I do it, cos i think people should not always see the best points about you, but learn to appreciate the negative side of you, so that when the best points finally show themself, they'll truly like you. However, i think it doesn't work; or at least it doesn't work all the time.
Most people take the positive things as just a passing memory, while negativity just strikes like a uppercut to the face. As such, i need to make this adjustment in my life.

Secondly, after seeing one of my exchange friends write.
I sigh. Because SEP was meant to leave a nice sweet taste in your mouth, and not such a soury one.
To me, the whole reason that things actually went that way; was a lack of proper communication. That there were countless amounts of misunderstandings, and nobody bothered to resolve them. These misunderstandings grew and grew, and ended up in animosity, in political war, and in that lasting soury impression. Emotions make us react, and thats what it did. It ruled over people's ability to think, made people turn into a fighter. That animalistic instinct to survive. Its perfectly normal, but it got a bit out of hand.
At the end of the day, this is all I've got to say. No one was seriously right or wrong at the end of the day. To say it was about values and differences would simplify it too much as well. I think, it soured, when people starting thinking for themselves, and selfishness got the better of everyone (not just selfish materially, but in everything). As such, i told myself, i should never let this happen again. And if there were a person to break Satan's stranglehold on these situations, I should take the 1st step and clear selfishness from the table.

Thirdly, its very interesting how impending danger just strikes fear into people. When the truth is menacing, its literally spine-chilling. I'm just talking about the swine here, because i just felt for a single moment how death is at our doorstep in terms of the swine, as davina mentioned in her previous post. But, it lasts for a moment, and whether one overcomes this fear, is all a matter of what your reaction is.

"Its simply not hardwired into us, nor can it be learnt, its more a matter of the soul"
-Matthias